Honestly…
I had to take a break. I took a break from a few things, not just the blog. I stopped posting on Facebook (shameless plug) for a while. I was just doing it non-stop. It was necessary to restart and get some more direction on where I want to go. I guess I took a pit stop.
Had to check the metaphoric map and got some snacks–freshened up. I figured out exactly what I want to do and it’s something I didn’t expect to go back to. I’m a little excited about it, but I have no idea what to do. It’s a refreshing feeling.
On Facebook, I posted the same thing over and over and over and…(you guessed it) over again. Not the exact thing, but the same type of post. Uplifting quotes, Women of Color images, Shadow Work/Inner Clarity Prompts….ugh. It’s tiring having a presence that’s always smiling. And, that’s not to say that I don’t want to be smiling…
Showing Up
I created an image of uplifting, happy/go-lucky Chyna. If you don’t know my name…it’s Chyna. Anywho! I created a persona. My posts are never sad. They are created to bring hope to people and help them to believe in themselves.
Imagine you’ve been following a creator who was always positive and then bloop. A spiral of negative emotions and fears, worries…it just doesn’t fit there. My blog, I write everything and anything I want. But, because of the whole experience: I became burnt out.
I just needed to experience life outside of the phone to get back to feeling content enough. My goals are simple and honestly, Facebook! TikTok, This Blog, and even YouTube do not align with it. I am doing it because I like doing it…but, that’s honestly a bit of a waste of time when I do it more than my actual goal.
And the restart reminded me of this.
What Now?
Honestly, I don’t know. I don’t want to say anything that might change in the future. I still want to post once a week, but I don’t want to pressure myself to do so anymore. It’s just not my energy. I have a schedule for my children and I, and that’s it.
I will factor this in there, but not above my actual goals.
And, for Facebook. Probably going to have to schedule posts ahead of time and release them. The engagement might go down because I won’t be responding to comments…but I’m okay with that. I have this imaginary image I created and she’s trying to run the show.
I’m just going to do my own thing now. Fuck her.