January has been the longest month of 2025 and there are eleven more months left.
I have struggled already. I have experienced spiritual visitors at 03:00 (or around that time). Found out that my closest friend might actually be my enemy. Oh, my middle school classmate is currently stalking me and boldly displays her obsession with me. If she was an animal, she’d be a honey badger. #IYKYK
I’m starting to realize I’m way more than I ever known…so with all of this, I lost track of time. I really felt and thought two weeks went by during my last blog. So, now I’ll take a moment to explain something I’ve been explaining to everyone all my life.
To your most probable disbelief, time does not go by for me the same way for you. Honestly, this is true for everyone. But, I’ve noticed majority seem to say time goes by faster for y’all than me. It really makes me wonder what you experience.
I Can’t Perceive So I Can’t Relate
This is a bar and I truly cannot perceive it. And people keep trying to tell me that you’ll look back and be like “wow, it went by in the blink of an eye” and it has yet to happen. My son is turning five and I still felt every day.
Time goes by so slow. I love that, but I also dislike it because waiting for stuff feels so much worse. If you can relate, that would be nice. Unfortunately, I feel everyone is distracted.
Anyway…
This Is What The Blog Is Really About!
I don’t know exactly who it is, but I’m starting to get known. It’s a weird feeling, actually. And, it’s happening without my actions. Well, I’m working and minding my business, but something else is at play…in this game. I just really wanted to add that.
Like, how do I explain? I’m doing the things I normally do. I’m creating and living life. And something, in the shadows? In the background, maybe. Something is working for me. I mean, obviously, it’s GOD. But, that’s not just it. I think it’s also because of association.
Something big is coming! I have no clue how anything is going to play out from now on, y’all. That’s the fun part! I’m aiming towards my own shit, but somehow! Something else is brewing, outside of me, but still involving me!!
And…that’s what I think is taking forever, but I noticed it. Like, imagine being in the water and you see a shark is stalking you. You’re too far from the shore…and now you just KNOW it’s either gonna bite you or worse! So, you anticipate it. Everything slows down…you’re trying to focus on other stuff, maybe try to continue swimming (towards the shore). But, in the back of your head…the lingering feeling that you’re being stalked.
That’s how it feels, but positive, lol. I just needed to explain the fear in my heart of the shark. I am still scared, but I don’t know how or what or when! That’s still very real, but I’m also excited.
Do you understand me at all here? 🤣